A light at the end of the tunnel...

I had a wonderful time last night after a very confusing, stressful, hectic day. My anxiety attacks kicked in mid day and I just couldn't seem to calm myself and ended up leaving work early. After my heart was racing and my blood pressure was up and it just seemed like it didn't want to come out of me, my chest was tight and I was starting to get a migraine, it was horrible. So after leaving work an hour early I went home to walk into more chaos since we're doing some small alterations to the house before the holidays hit. I managed to sneak off into the basement for a half an hour and read a chapter in my book. Brennen had a hockey game at 7 last night, and after the fiasco on saturday I was very reluctant to even go to the game. They lost as usual, but it was good seeing Brennen out there on the ice. Afterwards, Eric and I went to dinner, had a burger and a shake and talked till 2am. That was the highlight of my whole day, being able to have someone listen to my bullshit. I was very shocked at some of the things that were up for conversation, not shocked in a bad way but more of a "you can fell comfortable around me to basically tell anything" kind of way. So, he knows more about me and I feel I know a hell of alot about him. And Todd, after our little chat, I'm still chicken shit and need some more encouragment. If I ruled the world you know exactly how it would be run, so I need a kick in the ass again, if you'll be so kind.